April 2nd, 2008 (Wednesday)
So, yesterday I went to my first teaching experience... And although I thought it went good enough, I was told that I got fired!! =S
But hey, I know it wasn't my fault!! Bah!
(Listening to Orenji no taiyou =) )
Anyway, yesterday I bought a cellphone and I called a bunch of people who were very happy to hear from me =)
I miss everyone so much! Really, I try not to think about it, 'cause when I do I cry...
I knew it was going to be hard, but it's even harder than I imagined!
Anyway... Today I went to teach at another school, and I teached 5 different classes in 2h30m!! Geez it's tiring!! I have to develop some kind of plan... lol
I also got my "curse" today..Sh*t! Thank God it's not hurting a lot, but I really wish I didn't have it =s
(Listening to Reno)..."I try my best to be strong", "Does it have to be harder than ever, my heart beat's way too fast to recover..." I don't know why I transcribed those lines from "I Still", but they mean something!!
This is so stupid, but I thought that being away from Portugal and having a different routine would make me forget some stuff. It did, ok... but the one thing I never thought about back home keeps pounding in my mind, my heart...every inch of me. My forbidden crush? Is that what this is called? I'm not sure, but whatever it is, it's always in my head and I feel awful about it... Not for me, but for him and his wife... I have no right whatsoever to like him!
Ok, so I didn't exactly choose to feel this, but I've managed to keep it a secret for one year, why am I like this now? Ready to blow up?
Oh bloody hell...
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